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While I know there are many generations which had it harder than me, I grew up a few years too early to have experienced modern novelties such as grindr and xtube as a hormonal teenager.
Back in the day, we trolled yahoo groups for 30 second porn clips that we “save target”-ed and watched on Real Media Player, and constantly refreshed a message board known only as the “Gay Sex Chat Room” whilst feverishly saving jpeg’s to our hard-drive wank-banks.
We chatted on gay.com and gaydar hoping to find hook ups in our area at a time when having digital photos of oneself was a novelty. In fact, I remember a time where you could snail-mail your photo to websites with your username, and they would digitise and post them for you.
Regardless of the technology we had access to or how many gay icons we had (or didn’t have) to look up to, we all fumbled through the same dark ages where we crawled our way out of the closet trying to test and explore every unknown aspect of our sexuality on the way out.
It occurred to me that writing my own complete sexual history might be a therapeutic if not hilarious endeavour… and that if I shared my stories of the dark ages, I might inspire some others to share their stories as well.